What have I done?

Really probably not a whole lot but with the recent change in Reese's behavior, I have been wondering if I am being the type of mom that God would be proud of. Am I too hard, too easy? Do I give in to one child more than another?

Sometimes, I feel that we are way hard on Kaylee. She is over all a wonderful kid and we let her have her space as much as possible but is it too much. I know it makes some parents nervous that we allow Kaylee to play outside by herself in the front yard and let her wander and explore as long as we can keep an eye on her. At the same time. I get so frustrated with her when she does really dumb stuff. She doesn't listen all the time and we have really tried to crack down on that. I expect her to mind the first time and am not allowing much sway from that but then there are times when I fail. I try really hard to teach her about God's love and how important it is to mirror that in our relationships. I can't stand the way she talks to Reese sometimes and the way she does things. I really think part of our battle is battling with the Disney channel and Hannah,Wizards, and Suite Life. They have absolutely no respect for parents and we don't allow it for the most part. So, am I messing up.

Then there is Reese. Reese was such a sweetie until about 3 months ago and then the little hellion arrived. She is so disobedient. She will stand 3 feet from you and won't come when you ask. She is now wetting her pants again because she, "is okay that she is wet". We have spanked, sat in time out and threw away toys. She doesn't care. She will close her eyes when you are disciplining her and I so want to ring her little neck. I wonder if we had let her get away with too much before. But she seriously used to mind. So who knows.

I have been really praying about our parenting and asking God to continue to guide us as we raise the children He gave us. I want to bring them up in the ways that He wants us to. I get really nervous about all the PK (preacher's kids) reputation. I know some great ones though. So, again who knows.

We have a lot of exciting news I cannot blog about and that drives me nuts so we are again looking at going private so that I can truly blog my heart. I know I don't have many readers but cannot afford to have accidents. It really isn't anything big and it only affects me, but I am excited. And, no, we are not expecting!! So, if you try to get in one day and can't email me or ask on FB. I really don't think I have many readers but we shall see. I will post pics soon but have not put everything together yet.

The New Normal

We are trying to adjust to a new normal. I am still exhausted by midafternoon but have battled a small infection the last couple of days which may explain that. Kaylee has been a wondeful help and Reese has to but she sure has the "I don't want to's". She is just now really starting to push the mindind limits. She had always done so well until about 8 wks ago. Needless to say, the spanking spoon is staying close at hand.

I hope to get to go to church on Sun. I cannot stand not being there. We have officially been home a week and Becca will be 2 wks old tomorrow. We are having an ultrasound done on Fri just to check her because of the in utero cyst and make sure it is all gone. Plus the doctor wants to make sure she doesn't have kidney reflux since Reese did. Reese is going to be in a wedding on Sat also.

Phillip's dad is finally doing a little better. He is finally taking in sme food but is still not feeling well. Keep him in your prayers. So I thought I would post a few pics also.

Becca Paige

Becca was born on July 22 after I began to show signs of preeclampsia. She weighed 7 lbs and was 19 1/2 inches long. She was diagnosed with TTN(transient tachypnea of the newborn ) and later went into RDS (respiratory distress syndrome). SHe is doing much better now but has been intubated, had a feeding tube, had an IV and all sorts of fun things. But she is a trooper. This AM she had all her tubes out but now has her 02 and feeding tube back in. SHe just is not wanting to wake up and I am wondering if she is becoming jaundices which really makes them sleepy. I will update as I am able but please keep us in your prayers. I will post pictures of my sweet girls soon. Also pray for Kaylee and Reese. They are doing well but I know this is hard on them.

Becca Paige

Miss Becca made her arrival on the 22nd after I began having symptoms of preeclamsia. My blood pressure had shot up to 156/95 and wouldn't come down. The only solution is to deliver the baby and at 37 1/2 weeks we would never have thought there would be any problems. But to top it off she is a c-section and doesn't get that necessary squeeze. She was first diagnosed the TTN (transient tacnypnea of the newborn) and the next day was told she had RDS (respiratory distress syndrome). She was placed on the vent and gien 3 doses of surfactant and she has done beautifully. She was extubated today and is now on 1/8 of a liter. She is also eating and no longer has her gavage tube( suctions our her tummy of air). All she has left is her IV and O2 and they have discontinued her antibiotics.

Her sisters love her to death and we cannot wait to share her with the world. She weighed 7# and was 19 1/2 in long and has a head full of black hair but her face looks like the other two. She is a beauty and a precious gift of God. We have learned to

Here's the Scoop

We will have a baby on July 31st or before. That means we will meet the newest member of our family in 11 days. I can do it. My last day to work is next Mon. I have 5 more days to work and that is awesome. I have everything ready for Becca. Her bag is packed, her clothes are all washed and her bed is ready. My and Phillip's bag has been started and will be done soon. I got the girl's shirts made today. They say: "Daddy's Big Princess", Daddy's Little Princess" and "Daddy's Littlest Princess". They are precious. I have made as much plans as I possibly can. I sure do hope that she will come early though.

Phillip's dad is having a bowel resection on July 28th. This means that he will not be able to be there for Becca's arrival. I hate that his family will be torn between 2 hospitals in 2 different towns. It kills me. I am trying to figure out how to make it easy on everybody and I don't want anything left out. My absolute desire is to have Becca a few days earlier so that everyone is there.

One more week down

It is miserably hot. But it is one less week we hav to wait for Miss Becca's arrival. We have completed swimming lessons for both of the girls and they will be headed to Nana's Sun after a baby shower and baseball game. We will also be completing our second P3 (Praise and Party in the Park).

I have been having quite a few contractions lately. Some of them take my breath away. However, none of them are consistent. So we wait. I am trying not to be impatient. I finally found the rest of my baby clothes that I thought were lost. I have been having increased palpitations and couldn't get my shoes on this am. So we wait.

God's been busy

We went for our sonogram this week and Dr. M did not find the cyst. It is gone!! We are so thrilled. The power of prayer is indescribable. God has been busy with us lately. Healing Becca and saving our two older girls. I sure hope He doesn't want to take a break. It is wonderful to feel His presence in our lives. I think that we sometimes take His miracles for granted. At first the doctor said well, maybe there was a mistake in the first sono. But he knew as well as we did that God had performed a modern day miracle. We celebrated at Carinos. Tomorrow we are going to watch the Rangers play. My last outing before Miss Becca's arrival and we cannot wait to meet her.