What have I done?

Really probably not a whole lot but with the recent change in Reese's behavior, I have been wondering if I am being the type of mom that God would be proud of. Am I too hard, too easy? Do I give in to one child more than another?

Sometimes, I feel that we are way hard on Kaylee. She is over all a wonderful kid and we let her have her space as much as possible but is it too much. I know it makes some parents nervous that we allow Kaylee to play outside by herself in the front yard and let her wander and explore as long as we can keep an eye on her. At the same time. I get so frustrated with her when she does really dumb stuff. She doesn't listen all the time and we have really tried to crack down on that. I expect her to mind the first time and am not allowing much sway from that but then there are times when I fail. I try really hard to teach her about God's love and how important it is to mirror that in our relationships. I can't stand the way she talks to Reese sometimes and the way she does things. I really think part of our battle is battling with the Disney channel and Hannah,Wizards, and Suite Life. They have absolutely no respect for parents and we don't allow it for the most part. So, am I messing up.

Then there is Reese. Reese was such a sweetie until about 3 months ago and then the little hellion arrived. She is so disobedient. She will stand 3 feet from you and won't come when you ask. She is now wetting her pants again because she, "is okay that she is wet". We have spanked, sat in time out and threw away toys. She doesn't care. She will close her eyes when you are disciplining her and I so want to ring her little neck. I wonder if we had let her get away with too much before. But she seriously used to mind. So who knows.

I have been really praying about our parenting and asking God to continue to guide us as we raise the children He gave us. I want to bring them up in the ways that He wants us to. I get really nervous about all the PK (preacher's kids) reputation. I know some great ones though. So, again who knows.

We have a lot of exciting news I cannot blog about and that drives me nuts so we are again looking at going private so that I can truly blog my heart. I know I don't have many readers but cannot afford to have accidents. It really isn't anything big and it only affects me, but I am excited. And, no, we are not expecting!! So, if you try to get in one day and can't email me or ask on FB. I really don't think I have many readers but we shall see. I will post pics soon but have not put everything together yet.