New Normal..or Not So Normal

On September 19, I woke up at 4 am and went to the bathroom and got back in bed and my world started spinning uncontrollably. I have never been so sick. I was profusely sweating, vomiting and couldn't walk. Phillip took me to the hospital and was diagnosed with vestibular neuronitis. My symptoms were not getting better and I started having trouble seeing at times. So after about 10 days, I finally told my doctor and he sent me for an MRI. He and I were thinking multiple sclerosis. It was the longest week. We finally got the results and it appears that I never had vestibular neuronitis but had a cerebellar stroke. It is healing but I am petrified. I can't leave my husband and little ladies. I know that God saved me for a reason. He protected me from an absolutely catastrophic event. I trust that He is with me and I am trying to put away the fear. I am human and it creeps into my thoughts all the time. Everytime that my head tingles or the headache starts pounding I worry. Everytime I leave my girls and husband, I wonder if its the last time I see them. I am doing lots of tests right now and hopefully will have answers soon. I will get an appt with a neurologist soon and hopefuly will find out why but 30% of young people with strokes never know the why. Until then I know God is taking care of us. I continue to battle dizziness and trouble with vision and speaking and typing at times and my fine motor skills are really bad and I feel 10 weeks pregnant but I am not. I will continue to heal but ask for your prayers.